The Parting Gift!

I've always wanted to move out. This doesnt mean I dont like my home or something, its just that I've always wanted to be on my own. Wanted to be free, make my decisions, live life my way, do things my way.

To add to that, I've wanted to get a Parting Gift.A gift that'd remind me of all the important people in my life who have been there with me through thick n thin, happiness n sorrow, love n loss. I'd want it to be a special gift, something which shows my importance in their lives and theirs in mine. A parting gift is never just a present, its a moment in a which a lifetime of memories are sealed.

I remember the time we gave a parting gift to one of our friends, that may have been a very special moment in her life as it was in ours. I want my parting gift moment to be the most special moment in my life yet. But life has its own take on what we want..

I'm not going anywhere. My dreams would not be fulfilled, my life would remain the same. There wont be any parting gift since I'm not parting. I'll be there where I have always been. Not that I do not like it here, but the excitement of going somewhere is always great. I wanted to experience that. To go out n spread my wings was what I wanted.

Let's hope I get to do that sometime...

And the hope against hope continues with yet another hopeless hope..

Men vs. Women

They are opposite poles. They are never gonna be similar to each other. Here's something I researched a lot on..

Starting with Men:
1. Men think- Guys seem to think more about everyday things than girls do. Its often said that girls think too much about their clothes or looks but many a times, that is only they think about. A guy would think about any and everything, starting from how he looks to how should he say something to what effect would that have on others. They are always deep in thought probably thinking what the next step would be. A lot of men I've met are always thinking and the expression has stuck on their face and looks like they are thinking even when they are not.

2. Men flaunt- These days, more then women, guys flaunt. They do not flaunt their clothes or something but they flaunt about their activities. They are quite vocal about what they do, what they've done and what they wanna do. This may be probably because they do not care about somebody thinking about the same.

3. Men are stupid- This is because men do not know what or how the girl sitting in front of them wants him to speak. They do not know what to say and what not to even after thinking about it so much. They may even be aware of this fact, but they never try to overcome this fault of theirs.

4. Men are chauvinists- This is a well-known fact that men always think that they are superior to women. These days, however, the chauvinism is at a different level. Now, men do not think they are superior but they believe that they can get away with anything while women can't.

5. Men may be chivalrous- Very few men I've met were chivalrous. That is probably because they do not think it to be right to be courteous to a lady as 'she's an equal'. This is where the contradiction comes. When they have to do something for a lady, the lady is supposed to be equal to them and when the girl has to do something, she cant coz she's meant to be meek.

6. Men are immature-Men do not ever know what to do. They tend to believe everything they do/say is right when its not so. Men think that they can do whatever they want to, say whatever they wish at the cost of looking stupid.

Coming to women now

1. Women are bitches- They love to bitch about any and every person they can lay their hands, no matter how the other person may be. They can bitch about their best friend, their boyfriends, their parents and their brothers n sisters. They just cant get enough of it. However, they also love to say that they never bitch. yeah right!!

2. Women are attention-seekers-Women love to be attended to. They cant stand someone ignoring them. They'd try all means to get into the picture, by getting themselves sick, crying, and doing what not. They just want all the attention and not just from the guys but also their girl friends.

3. Women are mature- Its a well known fact that women mature earlier than men do. They know what to speak and when to speak. They know how to behave at a majority of places.

4. Women love to gossip-This is different from bitching. They love to talk about everybody else's affairs, break ups, patch ups, flings, results et al. They can start gossiping even if they do not know the person whom they are gossiping with. They just need a place and person to do so.

5. Women are dumb-They would do all sorts sorts of stupid things, like deleting her boyfriends all scraps and messages when there's a fight. They take things too much to their hearts too soon. Some things may be too dear to them to do that but women like to FEEL everything they see, hear or are subjected to.

6. Women flaunt- Women flaunt their clothes and accessories. They dont have enough going in their head which they can flaunt. All they ever talk about are clothes and stuff so unimportant that men eventually stop taking notice.

* There are exceptions everywhere so if you don't agree to what I say, either you don't want to accept or you are the exception!! Enjoy!!

Nostalgia

Sometimes in life, its really to go back and meet those people, who, if not now, but at some time held an important position in your life. Recently, I met an old friend at an old place we used to go to. We talked of the good ol' days and things we used to do. And I realized that how much we change in a short time and even though one is parted from friends by distance, its upto you to keep the friendship alive. There was never an awkward moment between us during the 2hours we sat together.
On the other hand, when some friends, whom, i like to call my best friends, met, there always are some awkward moments when both of us were left silent looking for words to keep the conversation alive. I do not blame that person. To an extent, its everybody's fault that they let that happen. People without whom my day didnt pass, without whom there were celebrations are now lost in their own words and the worst part being that there's no evident effort towards making the relationship better. All one thinks is that "let the other person make the move" which, I believe, never happens.

That is why, I keep on planning dates with my friends, to keep the friendship alive. Call it desperation or whatever, that's how I like it to be. Friends are the most important people in our lives and we shouldn't lose them, come what may.

An extension of this: I'm planning a get tigether of my college mates somewhere in mid-february. Hope to see everyone there :mg:

Nobody

Here's a little piece I wrote sometime back. No great words, just a simple poem I wrote when I was sad.

Nobody to talk to,
Nobody to care,
Nobody to say,
" I'm always there"

Nobody to wonder,
Nobody to ask,
Nobody to say,
"The friendship will last"

Nobody to smile,
Nobody to cheer,
Nobody to say,
"Wish you were here!"

-Shivani

Delhi to Mumbai!! February 2008

I wrote this last year but posting it now coz some portions were still incomplete. The final post...

My first trip to Mumbai..loved it, so wanna describe it to everybody..

So, here goes....

20th February: The Departure!!

Me n dad leave from home arnd 2 in the afternoon for the Faridabad Rly Station। Catch the train to Nizammudin n from there, we take the dreaded EMU (Thank god I came to know it was an EMU after I had got down!!). anyways..we go to New Delhi Rly Station where we found didi n masi. Didi was going with us. Our train, The Rajdhani, came minutes after we reached there. As if it was waiting for us to get there..lolz. We got in, took our seats, kept our stuff at appropriate places and settled down. there were 5 other people in the compartment. But all of them were very boring. No talks other than some talk about the seating or rather sleeping arrangement at night. Thats it!! Me n Tina got very bored as we weren't carrying anything to keep us entertained during the journey. But thanks to Indian Railway and the food, it took some of our time. At night, everybody were on their beds at 10!! Gosh!! Is that a time to sleep?? anyways, we cudnt even talk so slept but got up at 6 in the morning (Ab itni jaldi soyenge to nd bhi jaldi khulegi n moreover train mein itne jerks lag rahe they ki it was better to get up). Brush kar hi rahe they ki breakfast aa gaya..Woh khaya n then the wait started. The wait to reach Mumbai as our train was 30 minutes behind time. Dont ask how it feels coz I already had a tension of the GD/PI at NMIMS n this added to it.

21st February: Reaching there

As we got off the train, dad saw his friend coming (He was coming to pick us up only..no coincidences!!). We went with him to his car n kept our bags in the boot. Then started the drive. It was a 2hr drive from the Mumbai Central Rly Station to Navi Mumbai (God, did we get bored!!). Reached there and met the most amazing people..aunty n Kunjan (the girl, who owns n rides an Avenger n plans to buy a 1600cc bike!). Just when I was about to go n have a bath, they told me there was a tortoise in the bathroom n not be scared of it (huh!! who keeps a tortoise at home n that too in the washroom??). I was obviously scared but since it was in the other corner i managed and got ready. Me n Tina freshened up and again left for a drive to Vile Parle (W). Drove for some 1hr n then realised that we're lost n I'm late for the Interview(Panic!!!) So uncle suggested that we take an auto n reach there. Took an auto from somewhere in Vile parle(E) n reached NMIMS at 1.30 (the scheduled reporting time was 1pm) The people there were very cordial but since I was panicky, i climbed all the way to the 9th floor. Phew!! I was breathing heavily but cudnt even show when I reached the Assembly Room. Went straight to the last row. The speech was going on n after that, I asked a guy if they had already submitted the SOPs. He replied in affirmative n I went to the room n submitted the same. came back and sat in my row. Within few minutes, we got a call for the GD. The GD went off well. I gave in a few points so hopes alive... When we came out of the GD room, I had my first sip of water. What a relief!!

Went upstairs n had a chat with some people. After some 2-3 minutes the first batch of people were taken for the interview. 5 mins or so later, I was called!! waited outside for some 15mins before I was called in. The panel was really good n I didnt even for a sec felt that I was in the middle of my interview. Got done with the Interview n had my 2nd class of water. Relief!! Went out of the campus n met dad n Tina. Had some sevpuri which I didnt like much.

Then went to Juhu Beach n took some pics. The water was stinking!! Sheesh!! Tourists n Authorities..do take care!! Then went to Prime Mall.. It wasnt anything close to a mall but names can be misleading. Found nothing worthwhile there. Went outside n waited for dad's friend to arrive n pick us up. He came n we sat in his car for another long drive for 2hrs. :((

Back home, we had dinner n slept on a 11" thick mattress..lolz

22nd February: The last day!!

Got up at 9 in the morning n left from home arnd 11. Went by the Mumbai Local Train to Victoria Terminus (Now Chhatrapati Shivaji Terminus) from where we took the bus to The Gateway Of India!! Took some pics n left from there as it was very sunny. Took a taxi to the fs (the fashion street) n shopped for a while before going to Bandra Linking Road.This was a better shopping place and we did some shopping here. D was obviously getting bored coz both of us were too busy shopping. To add to it, all of us had had our breakfast(vada pav, missal pav) quite early in the morning and all of us were hungry. We searched everywhere for a good restaurant but couldnt find any, so we had to settle for McDonald's. By the way, the McD's there has a different menu. Things that we haven't even heard of here.

After some food, we went to dad's friend's office where we got a quite a few offers for Domino's Pizza which we rejected(and later regretted!). Freshened ourselves up and left for the airport. We were quite early as our flight was scheduled at 9pm and we reached the airport a 7! Talk about punctuality. Got bored here as well. Tried some corn and some other things to eat and kept some space for food inside the plane. :)

The Flight:
GoAir flight. We had window seats just above the wing so that kinda blocked the view from there and we were left asking for more. The flight was an amazing experience. We had Sandwiches during the 2our flight. Our flight was delayed by half an hour because some 10 planes were in tow to land before us. So we kinda hovered in the air for about half an hour. There wasnt any nauseatic feeling during the flight though there was some trouble in the ears which was manageable. The whole experience was good.

Reached back home at around 1 in the morning and had a nice sleep on my cozy bed.

The good ol' days!

Last night, bhai was chatting with his friends on conference and i missed something. About an year back, me and my friends used to do that very frequently. We talked about anything and everything. Sometimes talking crap and sometimes we used to be really productive and made entire list of colleges we needed to apply to and sorts. Of course now all that is gone. But i still miss it sometimes. Probably those were some of the days when i had good fun with them.

I don't think anybody misses those talks, more so because they are busy with new friends. i do not blame them coz they are in a new world altogether now and it is a bit natural to move on in life. And since i'm the only one left, i am bound to feel that ways. Not that i miss it too often or something but i do sometimes.

Wish we could do that again.. but i'm just wishing and probably i won't even like it if we do that again, because things, people and priorities must have definitely changed. So its perfectly alright.

Hope everybody gets what they deserve in life.. Good luck!!

P.S. Does it feel like I'm sad or something? Lemme think.. I'm not. coz i'd like to remeber the good times and would love to forget the bad 'uns..

LIfe at Gargi summed up!!

This one's a couplet I wrote on the last day of college to put the life at college into words.. I would like to believe that it sums up the entire thing.

There have been fights,
There have been tears,
There have been smiles,
There have been cheers,
All i can say now is that,
I'm gonna miss these years.


Frankly, I'm not the kinds who'd write big words et al. I like to put it simple and straight. Like it or leave it ;) okay don't leave it..

Hoping for a great day ahead!!

Shivani