The good ol' days!

Last night, bhai was chatting with his friends on conference and i missed something. About an year back, me and my friends used to do that very frequently. We talked about anything and everything. Sometimes talking crap and sometimes we used to be really productive and made entire list of colleges we needed to apply to and sorts. Of course now all that is gone. But i still miss it sometimes. Probably those were some of the days when i had good fun with them.

I don't think anybody misses those talks, more so because they are busy with new friends. i do not blame them coz they are in a new world altogether now and it is a bit natural to move on in life. And since i'm the only one left, i am bound to feel that ways. Not that i miss it too often or something but i do sometimes.

Wish we could do that again.. but i'm just wishing and probably i won't even like it if we do that again, because things, people and priorities must have definitely changed. So its perfectly alright.

Hope everybody gets what they deserve in life.. Good luck!!

P.S. Does it feel like I'm sad or something? Lemme think.. I'm not. coz i'd like to remeber the good times and would love to forget the bad 'uns..

LIfe at Gargi summed up!!

This one's a couplet I wrote on the last day of college to put the life at college into words.. I would like to believe that it sums up the entire thing.

There have been fights,
There have been tears,
There have been smiles,
There have been cheers,
All i can say now is that,
I'm gonna miss these years.


Frankly, I'm not the kinds who'd write big words et al. I like to put it simple and straight. Like it or leave it ;) okay don't leave it..

Hoping for a great day ahead!!

Shivani

A million thoughts

A million thoughts run through my head,
As i lay awake on my bed,
How would life have been,
HAd i never met u.

there r things to be said
and things better left unsaid,
no matter what life holds,
i love it the way it goes.

some changes to go with it,
some moments to go in,
some breaths to be taken away
some people to cherish.

not everday do we get to meet ppl like u
not everyday that we get such moments,
but there r times which tell u
what life holds for u.

I thought of you!!

I dreamt of you last night,

and wished you were there,
all this while when I was alone,
I wish you would care.

I thought of you in the morning,
and wished you would call,
To talk to me just once,
and settled it all.

I saw you in the evening,
and wished you saw me too,
a small smile, a handshake,
were all you could do.

Sometimes, all it takes is a smile to put all the differences between people aside. Give that smile to the one you miss. And if you cant meet him, just send a message, a email or a scrap. Never let ego come between those people who were once your friends. You may tell others that it doesn't hurt, but I'm sure it does. Deep down, you realize that you lost a friend, a partner.. And if he/she cant take the step, you should. And i assure, that person is going to love it and who knows, you might become the best of mates. And even if that doesn't happen, at least you wont be pestered by their thoughts anymore!! :)

When you know other people, you know yourself. Your worth is by your friends and how you keep them. Its not about how you make friends, its how you maintain your friendship with them!!

Go ahead and take that step!! You'll feel much better..

I regret..

More than the things i regret doing, i regret not doing things, not saying things.

Here's a list of a few things i regret..

• First of all i regret not taking up commerce in my class 11th. Wish i did, coz then i would have been much better placed in life.


• i regret not taking admission in that colg. life would have been easier.


• i regret not being able to find the right people for friends. the journey would have been better.


• i regret not getting out of the car that day. things would have improved.


• i regret not saying things to her when she hurt me. she would have learnt her lesson sooner.


• i regret not clarifying things with people. we would still be able to see each other in the eye.


• i regret not doing that one chapter from which 50% of the questions came in the exam. would have given me more marks.


• i regret not seeing that question i left. would have given me more marks again.


• i regret not understanding things what people said them to me, sooner. would have told them a thing or two.


• i regret not speaking at the desired time and moment.


• i regret letting people talk about me behind my back.


• i regret not bouncing back when i should have.


• i regret not slapping her when i she said absurd things about me.


• i regret being a dumbass when it came to friends.


• i regret trusting females with friendship. they just dont understand it.


• i regret i trusted people more than they deserved to be.

Thats it for now. I would add more as and when required. If you feel you know a few more, leave a comment.

Love,

Shivani

The past 3 years..looking back!!

The past two years i spent at my college have been really eventful..n now m gonna bore u with all dat!!
Year 1 at College: the fresher year.. 2005, the year that was...m happy that it ended..seriously. There were so many tribulations in my life then..The ppl i met dint like me, n i dint like them for the same fact.. there were tears, anger, frustration, and everything i never hoped wud cum my way.. Only a few ppl supported me during this time n i wont shy away from taking their names..there was sheerein..every time i was down n out. there was megha..who always cheered me up wid her sweet Lil jokes. there was sanchi, who consoled me every time. there was anushree, my best pal, to comfort me in times of need. n probably i survived thru that yr just becoz of these ppl in my life..n i cant thank these ppl enough for being there..love ya guys..neways coming bk to yr1.. out of school n into a new world of college..the beginning was good. but my real friends helped me thru...n thn i realised a few things..i strengthened myself to stop thinking about those ppl who wont matter in my life.i let go of all the things they said or did, enjoyed all the bits of life i got. n things suddenly seemed to change..i was a new person then..n a new yr dawned..
Year 2 at college: being a senior.. we entered 2nd yr n were now 'seniors'.felt so gr8 to be seniors..we ragged n had lotsa fun..n so came to know of our juniors..they r really fun guys...n abt the 'ppl of 1st yr'..i found a way out..i cared even less..i dint depend on nebdy for nething n this helped a few realise wat i meant..n their attitude towards me changed a bit..n this change grew better over the yr. somebody even apologised n dunno if she meant it or not bt nt someone who wud keep mal feelings inside me for long, i forgave.. bt i believe one shd forgive his enemies bt nt forget them..the yr went past n there we had a trip in front of us..we went to Goa n such a lovely place it is. its such a pleasure being there n i hope i cud be there forever.

Goa brought all of us together..all d classmates n we enjoyed each other's company a lot..those 7 days were pure fun..how i miss those days. After coming bk from there..life changed..the whole class was together n everyone was hand in hand..it was like a homecoming..but then..the yr flew by and another yr came on..
Year 3 at college: Getting Serious.. before the college came into session, i joined mba coaching classes coz i had already decided on pursuing mba as a career. college started, classes, practicals, files, assignments, et al..as usual, in DU, one never even realises when the 1st term gets over...second term cam on n brought with it the agony of the upcoming n the most dreaded CAT exam..n other mba entrances..cant say if they went off well or not..coz m still to go to an mba school..ppl in college did help us 'mba aspirants' with notes n all..coz we dint attend much classes..classes at college went off fine except the fact that we realized that we were short of attendance..most of my friends had taken admission to mba schools n only i am left nw..bt then i chose not to...so its nt that big a deal..there was less of talking between me n my friends at college because i went less to college n that led to lil bit of differences...though its the end n everything is just perfect..the last few days came n everybody got nostalgic..college was ending n nobody realized that 3 years of our lives had passed by so soon...

Photo sessions, slam books, hugs n kisses, scribbles made our last days at college all the more wonderful..dont know how many ppl m gonna miss..bt m sure m gonna miss the days.College sure has taught me some of lies greatest lessons which i'll remember all thru it..It is very truly said that if one misses college, he misses life.. i now am grateful to ppl for (not) being there with me..coz everything that happened has taught me..made me a stronger person..Thank u guys..I would also take this opportunity to thank all the lovely ppl out there who made my 3yrs a memorable time...it was so wonderful to have u ppl around..gonna miss u guys!!!Love ya loads...